Taking Stock Tuesday

Wow, this week is a tough one! So far, each morning has been extremely difficult to get out of bed. I have this Friday off work, and I think the anticipation is really making the other days seem tougher in comparison. 

Part of my problem is that last week, I got some tough news. Found out on Thursday (immediately after my 9 mile run btw…what a way to kill that endorphin high) that I was out of consideration for the wellness position at work. Given my credentials, they declined to even interview me or speak with me about the position. My friends and family are of course telling me not to take it personally, and I was aware that with a company of our size, competition would be fierce. But I’d really hoped to be able to present myself and explain why I was ready for the challenge. Work has been tough for me the last couple of years. I had been in the same position for so long I felt stagnant, and when I was encouraged to take a position in our data integration department, I did it. But I’m finding that although I get along great with my team, my personality and brain are maybe not the ideal fit for the job. Luckily, my boss seems happy with my work, but I can’t help but feel like I could do more. Use my talents. Really enjoy being at work instead of just watching the clock for the next time I get to eat. 

I know that there are people out there that would kill to be in this position. That would kill have a job, period. And I get that I’m lucky. My job is making it possible for my husband to go back to school and pursue a lifelong dream of his, and I’m so glad to be able to help him do that. I am trying to make a conscious choice to appreciate my job for all the things it allows me to do, and the fact that I’m pretty happy with my life outside of work. It’s OK if I want to take a long lunch sometimes so I can squeeze my long run in during the day. There’s never a problem if I want to take a day off. The management is always asking what they can do to make me happy. I’ve got it pretty good, really-I just need my brain to make better sense of some of this tech-speak. 

So, that’s my rambling attempt to make myself feel better for losing my dream job. Life will still go on, I will still run, and dinner will still be on the table tonight. 

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7 thoughts on “Taking Stock Tuesday

  1. Keep trying, you’ll get there! Its great to have a job you love but if you feel like you could be doing something else its always good to have a plan and progress :)

  2. Aww I’m sorry about the position! But I agree with my fellow blog friends- I’m sure you’ll find something that you’ll LOVE! Don’t take it personally, especially since they didn’t even interview you.

  3. Here’s my thought – the fact that others are worse off doesn’t disallow you from being disappointed. In fact, I think that trying to ‘right-size’ your disappointment to what you think seems appropriate is a quick trip to harboring resentments. People will tell you all sorts of things … but it is up to you to figure out how you feel inside and what is the best approach.

    My wife has a job – it is decent, but doesn’t use her education, experience or really that much of her brain. So she is looking for another one … and it is tough because the economy and job market is still crap. So when a phone interview went like crap (job advertised not really what was available) she was really down and upset – she tried to say ‘well at least I have a job’ and I told her ‘no, it sucks that employers have such an upper hand right now that they can just go fishing’.

    I just think it is always important to allow ourselves to feel our feelings. Eventually we need to move on, but when that happens isn’t someone else’s decision.

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