I’m a pusher. I can’t find the exact quote, but it’s something about how if you flail, you might move faster but you’ll hurt yourself along the way. I do that. I put every ounce of myself into something, and sometimes I slip and fall, but generally I get where I’m going without permanent damage. I told myself and pretty much everyone I know that last week was supposed to be recovery at home, this week would be getting back to work, and next week I could try getting back to workouts. Yeah, I made it 2 days and decided to go for a walk after my post-work nap yesterday. And I went farther than I should have. Felt great and accomplished when I got home, but within 30-60 minutes I was miserable. Sharp stabby pain in my lower abdomen. Really, just pain everywhere. Like, so bad it would make me gasp. So I had to take it super easy last night. I had to have my husband finish baking the cookies for my knitting group tonight while I rolled around on the couch and cursed myself for just having to push it. Pain’s still here today, so I’m back at home instead of at work. A few steps forward caused a major backslide in me getting better. I don’t know why I can’t seem to just let recovery happen the right way. I told myself since this was my last surgery, and it was major, that I had to let things heal the right way and get back to stuff slowly. But when it comes to putting it into practice, I just can’t do it. Even now, I’m thinking if I feel better this afternoon, I could try to go to work then. Ugh, I know I need to just spend today hanging out and getting better, and that pushing it can cause adhesions, and for things to not heal properly. Here’s hoping I can heal the right way from now on-I can get my fitness back with hard work, but I only get once chance to make sure things heal properly.